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Hey Rosie!
I don’t know why you never talked to me
You kept it all inside, left me guessin’
You never spoke to me
Hey Rosie!
Crying all by yourself through the night (it ain’t right)
You built up such a sneak attack
But I would have liked your bark and not your bite
And while you floated away, I was drownin’ on my own
Oh, I couldn’t swim in your waves of stone
Hey Rosie!
You used me for your rock n roll fantasy
You got your time in the sun
Then you went on your way and let me be
Hey Rosie!
You threw it all away when things got tough
Was that millennial love, instant change?
I don’t know, ‘cuz you didn’t talk enough
And while you floated away, I was drownin’ on my own
I couldn’t swim in your waves of stone
Looking back now, I’m thankful you were here
And my pain has healed with time
But even with your best intentions
You buried the rhyme in the final line
Now it’s a brand-new day, and I’m sailing on my own
But I still remember your waves of stone
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I always took things for granted, it’s a weakness of mine
But now I’m looking for changes, in the heart and mind
It’s not a cry for help, it’s not dependency
Culture of compassion, accountability
We’ll be the light in the doorway, everyone can see
and feel safe in their place on this odyssey
We’ll be the light in the doorway, everyone can see
and feel safe in their place on this odyssey
Consider this, inspire me
Bring me back to the fold, with new philosophy
Share the love and forgiveness, in the company we keep
Divided we can fall apart, together we’ll be free
We’ll be the light in the doorway, everyone can see
And a safe place on this odyssey
We’ll be the light in the doorway, everyone can see
And a safe place on this odyssey
We’ll be the light in the doorway, everyone can see
And a safe place on this odyssey
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What I wanna be is the forgiving kind
But I hold myself back
Keep myself deep in blame all the time
I need a remedy, a cure for this endless ache
Dragging me down, pulling me under
‘Til everything’s at stake
But I see a clearing up ahead, and I'm gonna go that way instead
Gonna get right back, get right back
Back to the good
Take another path, get out of the woods
I was running scared and wild, acting like a child
But now I think I’ve finally understood
How to get right back, get right back to the good
When I was loving you, I was blind to my disease
But the day you left, that sudden shift
It knocked me to my knees
Now, I don't wanna be defined by my mistakes
Cause peace of mind has been hard to find
I gotta lean on the brakes
Tear down these walls of my pride, build up something bonafide
Gonna get right back, get right back
Back to the good
Take another path, get out of the woods
I was running scared and wild, acting like a child
But now I think I’ve finally understood
How to get right back, get right back to the good
On another day, at another time
I might take the easy way out
But I’ve seen ‘em all, the warning signs
I put it all in turnaround
These battle scars, I gave to myself
I know there’s only one way to be stronger
I’m gonna break my heart no longer
Gonna get right back, get right back
Back to the good
Take another path, get out of the woods
I was running scared and wild, acting like a child
But now I think I’ve finally understood
How to get right back, get right back to the good
Get right back, get right back to the good
Get right back, get right back to the good
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I see a big blue man with a liquor store plan
An orange-haired man bullying a child
My children face a world where good leaders can’t be found
I need to show them that there’s still good all around.
I’m all alone in a leaderless age
No inspiration; just men full of rage
Raisin’ my children all by myself
Outside my circle there is nobody else
I wish you were helping me
But I know that you ain’t with me
I’m flying with one wing, and you don’t do a damn thing
So I’m just gonna trust in me
Regardless of your stripes, good used to be good
But now there’s just no class, no grace, no brotherhood
While I know there’s lots of love in my community
Sometimes I feel like the world is all on me
I’m all alone in a leaderless age
No inspiration, just men full of rage
Raisin' my children, all by myself
Outside my circle there ain’t nobody else
I wish you were helping me
But I know that you ain’t with me
I’m flying with one wing, and you don’t do a damn thing
So I’m just gonna trust in me
I wish you were helping me
But I know that you ain’t with me
I’m flying with one wing, and you don’t do a damn thing
So I’m just gonna trust in me
So I’m just gonna trust in me
So I’m just gonna trust in me
So I’m just gonna trust in me
So I’m just gonna trust in me
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Take a coin, put it down
If we want to build a home
It takes more than love, though we do need love
To build a home
It'll take every ounce of determination
If we're gonna build a home
And good intentions of growing old
We'll show warmth and patience
In our home
We'll have more time for each other
In our home
We'll have tenderness
In our home
Stoke the fire to keep it going
Well there ain't no pain like when you lose your home.
brick by brick, stone by stone, designed by love, now it's gone
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In a small cafe at a crossroads on Route 63
Five miles from the last streetlight in East Bethany
She smiled and asked him if he wanted the check
He looked a bit of a wreck
But she was hoping that he wouldn’t leave
He held his heart out in his hand
And drove back north from the promised land
They shared everything across a border
Without a line in the sand
From his penthouse in Toronto to her front porch in Genesee
She felt close enough to touch but it was her that he couldn’t see
She had a cancer inside, a continental divide
Something wrong in the Land of the Free
He stood outside a closing door
He didn’t know her anymore
She was changing in all directions
North to south and shore to shore.
Friends and lovers turn to strangers sometimes
Over lies and made-up crimes
Just keep on digging to where the truth can’t hide
Just gotta keep your hope alive, keep your hope alive
And at night he dreams he sees her
Floating over the great lake
She looks free and beautiful
She holds a torch of forgiveness
And love for him to take
So he keeps that flame burning
Hoping she’ll awake
Friends and lovers turn to strangers sometimes
Over lies and made-up crimes
Just keep on digging to where the truth can’t hide
Just gotta keep your hope alive
Friends and lovers turn to strangers sometimes
Over lies and made-up crimes
Just keep on digging to where the truth can’t hide
Just gotta keep your hope alive
Keep your hope alive
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Learning to Love You
04:20
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While I was looking for reflections in the muddy water
You stayed inside and read the lines on my dark terrain
In the fading sun, I made a promise to my shadow
That I would learn to love you better and it dulled the pain
I had lost, circling down
Lost my soul, your love found it
Learning to love you and it’s healing me deep inside
I’m learning to laugh again and maybe go for another ride
Our love it grows, lines on my face forgiven
As I listen, I will change into your better man
As the bluebells dry slowly on your bedside table
I will replace them with these roses as I can
I had lost, circling down
Lost my soul, your love found it
Learning to love you and it’s healing me deep inside
I’m learning to laugh again and maybe go for another ride
Learning to love you and it’s healing me deep inside
Like a rose always living, in bloom on the vine
Learning to love you and it’s healing me deep inside
I’m learning to laugh again and maybe go for another ride
Learning to love you and it’s healing me deep inside
Like a rose always living, in bloom on the vine
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How To Be Alone
05:19
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For so long
You were closer than anyone could be
So real, so strong
You were the star of my waking dream
Everything I was
Everything I wanted
An angel drifted down from the sky
But you didn’t want to save me
And when your heart departed
I was left with me, myself and I
Never really knew who I was
‘Til I spent some precious time on my own
Never knew who I could become
‘Til I learned how to be alone
How to be alone
Those were days
Filled with anything but introspection
I had my ways
Of avoiding my own detection
You were everything to me
My identity
Loving you was where I could hide
Seemed like the safest place
Where I didn’t have to face
Me, myself, and I
Never really knew who I was
‘Til I spent some precious time on my own
Never knew who I could become
‘Til I learned how to be alone
How to be alone
Joy’s a moving target
Gotta keep your aim straight and true
The biggest thing, I put in my way
Was you with me and me with you
And that’s a hard-won truth.
Never really knew who I was
‘Til I spent some precious time on my own
Never knew who I could become
‘Til I learned how to be alone
How to be alone
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On the day you left, the world fell apart
Blamin’ myself, breakin’ my own heart
I can’t shake the feelin’ it was all my fault
Striking through my soul like a thunderbolt
And I feel all alone - “all alone”
Yeah I feel alone - “all alone”
Maybe the hole in my soul is just love calling me home
Oh, I’m no angel and I’ve made mistakes
But we all need love when our heart aches
I do my best with what I have
I can’t keep justifying who I am
‘Cuz I feel all alone – "no you’re not alone!"
But I feel all alone – "no, you’re not alone!"
Maybe the hole in my soul is just love that’s calling me home
For all I’ve seen, I’m not unchaperoned
No matter how hard I weep and moan
In my life, I’ve seen the sun and rain
But everybody suffers and we’re all the same
No we’re not alone – "no, we’re not alone"
No, we’re not alone – "no, we’re not alone"
I guess the hole in our souls is love calling us home
"No we’re not alone!" - No we’re not alone!
"No we’re not alone!" - No, we’re not alone!
"No we’re not alone!" - No, we’re not alone!
"No we’re not alone!" - No, we’re not alone
I guess the hole in our souls is love calling us home
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The Promise of Airfields
08:24
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Wasted and achin', all those years fakin'
With a drink in his hand for the pain.
Everyday thinking, 'bout the weight that was shrinking
All of his best laid plans.
Holding on to childish things
Desperate for a new set of wings
And a mile of runway for a safe place to land
I'm coming down
I'm coming down
I'm coming down
I'm coming down
Always feeling too much
Staying numb to the touch
His mask was wearing too thin
Misery finally met grace
He took a hard about face
Shed that dangerous skin
Cause battles can still be lost
The same way that they’re won
And he’s climbing his way through the clouds up to the sun
I'm coming down
I'm coming down
I'm coming down
I'm coming down
‘Cause battles can still be lost
The same way that they’re won
And he’s climbing his way through the clouds up to the sun
I'm coming down
I'm coming down
I'm coming down
I'm coming down
The journey's long but the time was right for me to heal
I flew too high but I needed the view to show me what was real
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Little Man
04:15
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Little man
It’s so hard to be you
The world wants you to change
I want you to be you
Little man
After all you’ve been through
You’re wise beyond your years
You see right through our fears
You are the best in me
Bring out the thirst in me
To be the better man
To help you where I can
You are the best in me
Bring out the thirst in me
To be the better man
To help you where I can
Little man
When the noise is too much
There’s a crack in your calm
And the shame washes over you
Little man
When pain takes me away
It separates me from you
But you find your way back to me
You are the best in me
It brings out the thirst in me
To be the better man
To help you where I can
You are the best in me
It brings out the thirst in me
To be the better man
To help you where I can
If there’s only one week left
Let’s play a little harder
Cuz you and I, we’ll make the most of it
You are the best in me
It brings out the thirst in me
To be the better man
To help you where I can
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When I awake and see the morning star
And its halcyon rays
Blinded by the future light
Tripping over today It’s here to be, and here to see,
This time I understand The house is full, I know the rules,
but I’m folding my hand, but I’m folding my hand
I’ve been running away from here, for far too long
Missing out is a tragedy, the greatest that we’ll ever know
Let tomorrow go, let it fall,
Swallow the key to the past Yesterday’s gone, a chapter done,
Blown out the candles again, blown out the candles again
I’ve been running away from here, for far too long
Missing out is a tragedy, the greatest that we’ll ever know
There’s nowhere else that I want to be
In my life and the air I breathe.
There’s nowhere else that I want to be
Than here now
No more running away from here
There’s nowhere else to go
No more running away from here
There’s nowhere else to go
No more running away from here
There’s nowhere else to go
No more running away from here
No more being alone
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Grace
06:36
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There's a little bit of glory in the suffering
There's a tiny spark of joy in the pain
Tried holdin’ on to love I was losing
Didn't know I had wisdom to gain
It's true that we're all chasing something
That'll give us relief and escape
There's a war that you knew I was waging
Hiding demons under a hero's cape
You let go of my hand, and walked out the door
But you led me to find what I was searching for
And I'm thankful I'm not blind anymore
And now I see – there was love in you leaving
And now I see – there was gold in the grief
And now I see – that grace, was all down to me
I was dreaming, planning for the future
Afraid to find peace with the past
You tore the next page from the story
I wanted to burn your memory to ash
It forced me to stop and remember
That I'm the author of every move that I make
Didn't believe in a silver lining
'Til the truth shone through for goodness’ sake
'Til the truth shone through for goodness’ sake
And I thank you for lighting my way
I'm healing day by day
And now, I realize why you couldn't stay
And now I see – there was love in you leaving
And now I see – there was gold in the grief
And now I see – that grace, was all down to me
Down to me, down to me
And now I see – there was love in you leaving
And now I see – there was gold in the grief
And now I see – that grace…………………
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Chris Antonik Toronto, Ontario
“One of the best artists we’ve heard from the Great White North.” (American Blues
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"Classic modern blues ... made with wisdom and style. Antonik has a transcendent understanding of modern electric blues.” (Indie Folk Americana)
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Toronto-based Chris Antonik blends innovative, thoughtful songwriting with stunning blues guitar work.
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